Wake Up!

Today was one of those wake up days for me. As if I had just splashed water on my face or stepped out into the sunshine. I had been having a couple of those dreaded kinds of days. The sad ones. I had let situations and circumstances get me down. There were many things going on. I was feeling unloved, unwanted, and miserable. When you are feeling down, it is easy to just keep thinking of things that have been hurting you and just pile it all on at once. I just sat there and let my self cry until I fell asleep. I woke up to a new day and a new perspective. 

I have found that the people we love the most in this world are the people who have the power to hurt us the most. I have found that there will be times when you feel like you'll always be second place. I have found that love doesn't stop, even when you are hurting. I learned alot about myself, and about my capacity for forgiveness, love and understanding. 

I had to remind myself that God has a spectacular plan for my life. I had to remember that someday, I will be THE one for someone, instead of being just someone. I like that :) I will be one in a million, not one of millions. When life gets me down, when the Devil tries to make me feel terribly ugly and unlovable, my creator wraps me in his arms and tells me it will all be ok. 

I have thought more and more about things I have learned, and the Lord has really put it on my heart to help young women and teenagers girls in some capacity when I get older. I want to influence girls so they don't have to feel or experience some of the things I have. God has been so good to me. When I don't get what I want, I feel like there is something with me or that I did something wrong, when in reality God just has something better for me. 

I love being positive. It is the new me. . . i hope.